Love And Monstrosity.

allright before we get down to this writing , let me ask you guys something...What is Love? ..... Baby don't hurt me...don't hurt me...no more... NO it was not that song K? , love is is an emotion of a strong affection and personal attachment Love is also said to be a virtue representing all of human kindness, compassion, and affection —"the unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another". Love may describe compassionate and affectionate actions towards other humans, one's self or animals.

,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,Apparently it was what the wikipedia say ..........., anyway here's my philosophy about love...first IMAGINE love.....think it....the first time you feel crush on someone...you liking someone...now think about when you got the perfect guy / girl and decide to marry her...and then have a beautiful life and have a cute baby and stuff.....allright now , ever heard of a quote "i love you until you are DEAD" all right apparently , the word Dead is really disturbing as it is , now imagine that the one you loves turn into a some kind of monster i mean to the cute one the bad one like some kind eating human corpses and eating his own █████ and other NEGATIVE shit that i doesn't want to say , do you still love her? / him? , do you still want to fuck her? / him? , well i would say NO if i were you... , some people might be sayying yes but that's his / her answer , but remember we are on the internet life not on real life i mean if your lover turn into a big giant insect like flies or worm or other insect that is gross..would you still want to kiss her? / him? still fuck her? / him? i would say NO cause that's the truth ladies and gentlemen ,*sigh , well really people always say that "i love you" i just hate that , cause he says that only because the girl or the boy were handsome or beautiful , if the girl or the boy were a fucking gorrila or a alligator i doubt he/she still gonna say "i love you" well that's bullshit know what i mean? , so you guys might be wondering , that if i ever love someone ? yes i was once love someone it was my parents but not anymore , what i love right now is video game cause whatever you do whatever you do shit video game WILL NEVER ever leave you here's the thing

you angry to your girlfriend = she gonna mad at you and broke up with you
you angry to video game = IT WILL NEVER EVER FUCKING MAD AT YOU NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAY

you want to go back to your boyfriend = HE WILL NEVER WANT BE WITH YOU AGAIN
you want to go back to gaming world = IT WILL FUCKING ACCEPT YOU AGAIN NO MATTER WHAT YOU JUST DID

and a LOT of things that video game is better than boyfriend and girlfriend ... lol , anyway as i was sayying you guys might be wondering if i ever love someone? yes apparently i was loving the girl on my dream (no seriously) i did actually love her , cause in some dream she actually really "appear" and pretending that she was my girlfriend who ended my wife and stuff but in all of my dream that she ever been on , when i woke up , i cannot describe what her face ever was , it's kinda confusing and really i just don't fucking get it.. , well i just told you my secret and since we are on Blog so everything what i said here only few people that can see it lol (unless i share my blog) , yep i think that's it my writing this time i emm will update more everytime that i wanted to update it :p , K? happy electric then

Another dream

before i tell you this "writing" of mine , first i just wanna tell you guys that i was a lucid dreamer (well not too good at it so don't ask me stupid things thank you) and i just wanna share my 143th dream yep this is my 143th dream (yes i counted all of them but only some of them are written on my dream note) i have been using Induce A Lucid Dream (Audio) a lot but still i can't control my dream and still can't find the girl that i just met ... until today..i met her again in my dream , but it's kinda weird that when i try to remember her face (after woken up) her face just all just blurry i mean REALLY REALLY blurry like when you play minecraft game , it's like a really really small pixel , anyway let me just write what i did write on my dream note here we go :


  February 2013

      I doesn't Remember a couple dream before this dream but thi is the only thing that i remember , I was standing in some garden waiting for someone , my mind told me to leave but my body won't move as the rest of the dream i can't do anything but to watch all the dreams , as i was standing there looking into the flowers in the garden , A hand grabbed my hand from behind and immediately pulling my hand , as i was try to look into the girl's eyes...IT WAS MOTHERFUCKING BLURRY FOR GODDAM SAKE , it's all like that actually in a lucid dream (i was about to say dream but in lucid dream you can remember anything and you need to write everything on your dream so next time you're dreaming you can more remembering it) you can't see the person face eyes or more specific of person ... you know like face and stuff you can only see his/her body including hand feet and stuff and hair too ! , but you can't see his/her face , anyway as i was being pulled by that girl (she have the same voice) she was yelling "WATCH OUT ! WATCH OUT !" and i have no idea what she was talking about , and then she turn and kisses me and then she died instantly as his belly was torn apart by a sword , and then the person who just stabbed the girl pushes me into the cliff as i was fall i was wake up from the dream , UNTIL this day i have NO idea who the girl was i just hope maybe it was a girl from other universe or other world to pick me up like in the movies lol , well it's better to not get the hopes up....

dream.

i was standing there ..... , in the green hills full of nature's beauty... , i said to myself "is it a dream? , am i dead?" as i was crying in the middle of the hills , a voice of a little girl was heard by my ear saying "come on.... you can do it....trust yourself ..... i will be here....waiting..." after i heard that voice my spirit was raise again as i was look up , i just have a realization that i was standing in the top hill of a waterfall , i heard a voice in my head saying "WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK IS THIS SHIT?" , as i was quickly hold a rock that still standing in the top hill of waterfall , a girl voice that i just heard for the beginning was heard again by me saying "trust yourself" and then without thinking it again i was releasing the grip of my hand from the rock and continue to jump from the top hill of waterfall , as i was falling to the water , a girl was hug me , somehow i can't see her face , i just know that this girl , is the same girl who talked to me earlier , as we both fall down into the water , i can almost sees his face but when we both hit the water i was wake up , and then realize it was just a dream....who is that girl? , is she the same girl that appear on my dream 5 years ago? is she the one who can bring me into the light? is she....my love? oh god you and your riddle were confusing me...meh better go back to sleep ~.~